seeking the wild of the everyday

Friday, April 12, 2013

the lucky ones





be still my beating mother's heart.

let's revisit the subject of nursing: i really did not enjoy it for a long time. i understood and appreciated all of the benefits, emotional and nutritional and anthropological , but it was a pain. i think now, at nearly 13 months, we're just hitting our stride, whatever that means. it was all worth it, not to wean him when it was hard, just to have the nursing relationship we have now, and for when he's older. think about it: he's walking/RUNNING around, trying to WALK down the stairs, saying da-da-da-da in the sweetest voice humanly possible, pulling at my skirts all day long with his snoogy nose, crawling through the garden bed like it's a sandbox.....nursing is the only downtime we've got, and it's definitely tapered off. there's still nights when he's teething and nurses every hour, but that's the exception. it's so great to have that one magic trick that will make him happy, and relaxed. he pets my face while he nurses. awwwww.


daddy made a clubhouse with a little door. it just tickled us pink to see this little person go in and out of his house. he loved it.


douglas iris, native, wild iris. so happy to see this lovely near the northwestern tip of folsom lake, penryn area.  we came during a magic time.





nothing but blue, green, and orange. the sweet breath of lupine. 
we felt pretty cool to have a real easter bunny this year. thank you, flopsy. i  am amazed and enchanted by people who decorate, and have cute things to put up, mainly because i don't naturally operate that way. i know that celebrations like these mark the passage of time and accentuate our natural rhythms -and kids love it-  but i just can't figure out how to dress it up. we just sorta live one day at a time and soak in it's wonders.
: birthday self portrait while teddy pulls on strap. :) little weasel. i had pampered myself: shower (joined by Link), and a home concocted facial. i was recollecting a book my mom loved to read to us as kids titled: five minutes peace.

i turned 25 yesterday. i felt pretty lucky, and spent the day in peaceful meditation about everything i've learned about myself in the last year. i just feel so much stronger. i asked myself, what do you want to do today? the answer was obvious: go find food. real food. ...meet jack.

jack preaches the gospel of wheat grass juice. he sells it in vats as part of his csa offerings. "dolly, have you ever know anyone with five, five terminal cancers??" "no, jack, i haven't." well, he's cured them all with his oxygenating, enzyme building wheat grass juice. this, and bee pollen, are his preferred food choices. ;)

we met at last year's earth day festival in roseville. he lives in newcastle, about 15 minutes up 80 from where i live, and it is just gorgeous. wild, hilly, green. his little house feels like home to me: books books books houseplants galore.


the view from his fava beans. :)


sunrise, mammatus clouds, wind, sunset. yeah, it's pretty good.

the next day:


birthday revelry: i inherited this fat faux fur coat from my cousin stephanie, who inherited it from my flashy grandmother. win. i had a little party.
it was a tie dye partay. we made some interesting designs. (diana, me, susan.) not to deny the overwhelming spirit of abundance in my life buuut i wish i'd had a group photo taken. i've never had so many kids running around in my house.
 of course there was an ironic photo shoot.
diana serenades me, old timey tunes.











she brought a jug of her famous kombucha. see that dream catcher in the distance? she made me that for my birthday. ahh, true love. <3

my dad came down and hung a HUGE painting he painted that has two bald eagles in a landscape inspired by where my folks' live. i have the biggest ace wall anyone's ever seen and now it is properly utilized. thanks pops. i'll post a photo soon. it makes my house tres dope.

annnd right now i am in the far mu east(ern american continent..) for my first time, studying the whole new world of flora (fungi?) and fauna and pondering monuments designated to represent the consciousness of the entirety of the american people. heavy. 
my gracious and kind in-laws have flown us over. :)

 here are some glimpses so far:


the metro

i have tapped into limitless abundance of the universe and i sip the sweet nectar; we are all limitless abundance, we just forget sometimes.
one last thing: have any of you read a book that rocked your core again and again as it realigned you to your truest stars  like a cosmic back adjustment? i've read a lot of amazing things but barbara kingsolver does this to me every. single. time. the earth folk, the food folk, the down home the little house cookbook folk (tami got me the latter for my birthday :) ) it is her family's tale of being fed by the soil under their feet. it's about how eating bananas is as extravagant as driving a humvee, and asking why no moral value has been assigned to over-consumption (in a down-to-earth fashion.)

if you've read it please gush with meee, omg!!!

3 comments:

  1. awww i am so sorry i missed your birthday party, i knew it was gonna be a blast (um please, tie dye party? yes thank you.) but i ended up having to work at bookery that day (yep i'm back to work a day or so a week) and just too tired after to make the trek down. i want lucy to hang out in house-fulls of kids with giant jugs of kombucha and homemade dream catchers, oh yeah! love your new fur coat, and all your clothes in fact. you are so cute in your pleated pants and nice 80s tops, for example that fruit-and-dot one, amazing! you have always had the best zany style.

    um i want to meet your friend jack. his spread is so dang dreamy.

    have fun on the east side! from tiny turtle to cherry blossom to monuments. that is a super adorable family pic.

    and i loved hearing your nursing tales. lucy is at a difficult nursing age, very active and pinchy while nursing and not usually as relaxed and sleepy-timer. i am wondering what is up! does this happen around nine months. at least half the time it is not relaxing to nurse, but just now i got her down for a nap that way which makes life so peaceful and easy. so i will definitely be diligent. she does love it still. just loves everything else too!

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  2. DOLLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Birthday fever dreamer. what love and life you have. loving it all and being whole and present! I love you. Love that first pic of link and is snuffy face :) such a doll and all the pics are just class act!! you know it. Your trip looks sooo fun. what a perfect time to go when the blossoms are in full and so lovely. Baby turtle!!! do I need to say more and I want that book. I love good true words that feed my soul. I did give up the freaking bananas for a good while because of that very thing, its not natural. but matt likes to have them before he does a race which is not that often. so many little things add up to greatness. We must continue to learn and grow and bloom, and sharing the wealth. You have always been such a great friend maker. Getting treats at the campsite next door and all. I love all the new folks and places you visit. just wish I could be with you on these romps but I'm glad you share them here. Love you dearly xoxo and happy birthday cutie xoxo

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  3. wowzers, from the lupine luscious hills of nor cal to the cherry blossoms of the far east. oh you know, just another day in the blog. holy crow! happy birthday to you (aries?) and i could feel the tie dyed love from here. i love the way you describe kingsolver. i totally agree. i read "flight behavior" around the new year and there was some major sock rocking star aligning heart breaking on that one.

    have a wonderful trip! look forward to hearing your tales when you get back.

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