seeking the wild of the everyday

Sunday, April 29, 2012

"she's gone....

oh i, i better learn how to face it...she's gone, i'd pay the devil to replace her..."

i'm in love i'm in love and i don't care who knows it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...with my mother-in-law, tami casper.

today she drove away after staying at my house for two months, and i called my husband and cried.

there's an ache in my heart that can only be described as the flattened carpet of where her air mattress used to be, or the future dirty dishes that will pile up in the once sparkling sink....

how can i tell you, internet readers, how much this grand lady means to me?

she was there in a time of great need within my very own little family.

she has seen me naked, she has seen me scream and sob, she has seen me greasy and scared to live another day...

never once did she tell me how to be a mother, or a wife, or a home maker.

she was never anything but compassionate, and helpful, and selfless, and pleasant; a friend.

she shopped for the house and cooked meals and kept the house clean round the clock...
she entertained and fed a rowdy four year old, did laundry, and was an extra set of hands for when the baby was fussy...

she sewed 30 beautiful cloth diapers.

she stayed at our house, away from her husband, and two other daughters that are equally busy with their own little families

she saved our lives.

see how cute his diapers are?

i love you tami casper. and the only way i know how to thank you is by promising that i'll get better, and that everything is going to be okay here. we'll stay in touch. we've had some good times, eh? ;) (i know, what a paltry way to describe the end of an era but i'm floundering here for the words.... you.... so ...special....)

 love, dolly